Menangis bersama Tuhan ..

"Hatiku terluka Tuhan..
Terlalu pahit..
Terlalu dalam luka hatiku.
Terlalu banyak air mata yang jatuh.
Tuhan, temenin aku ya.."

Itu jeritan hati saya seminggu yang lalu.
Saya jatuh.
Saya terluka.
Dan saya menangis.
Tuhan, Kau ikut menangiskah?


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Akhir - akhir ini saya banyak mengeluarkan air mata. Banyak alasan yang membuat air mata saya jatuh. Namun, saya selalu ingat. Saya punya seorang Sahabat yang selalu ada bersama saya.


Hari kamis yang lalu, adalah hari pertama saya menangis dalam minggu ini. Ada suatu hal yang membuat saya terluka (di Sekolah lagi). Saya hanya bisa berkata dalam hati,"Tuhan, temenin aku ya..".
Pulang sekolah saya masuk ke dalam mobi, seorang sahabat menemani saya. Sekedar bergurau, ia berkata,"Nat, pas banget momennya. Mendung banget." Walau maksudnya adalah bergurau, perkataan itu membekas dalam hati saya. Hari itu langit sangat mendung, semendung hati saya. Dan, tak lama, hujan lebat turun.


Hari demi hari berlalu. Hujan lebat terus turun. Hingga Senin sore, Tuhan berkata pada saya. "Saat kamu menangis, pasti selalu hujan." Saya kaget. Ternyata selama ini, Tuhan ikut menangis bersama saya. Yang dilambangkan dengan hujan.
Hari kamis tiba. Pagi itu langit sangat cerah. Namun beberapa jam kemudian, luka itu muncul lagi. Dan saya kembali meneteskan air mata. "Tuhan, temenin aku ya.. Tuhan.." kata saya lagi. Seketika itu juga, langit menjadi gelap. Dan hujan lebat turun hingga sore menjelang malam.


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Sudah seminggu Tuhan ikut menangis bersama saya.
Di saat saya merasa kesepian, saya berlutut dan menangis. Ia ada disamping saya, ikut menangis bersama saya. Bukan hanya itu, Ia membebat luka hati saya, bahkan mau memikulnya.



Sungguh, saya sangat bahagia saya mengenal seorang sosok yang selalu ada bersama saya.
Lucky, i'm in love with my BESTFRIEND, Jesus Christ :)

inspiration.

Kalau ku harus berjalan.
Dalam lembah kekelaman.

PerlindunganMu oh Tuhan

Nyatalah bagi hidupku.

Tiada pernah sedetikpun.

Tiada pernah Kau tinggalkan.

Sungguh mulia dan sempurna.

Hanya Kau layak disembah.

Yesus Engkau Jurus'lamatku

Dalam janjiMu, kemenanganku.

Selamanya kan ku nyatakan.

Besar setiaMu Tuhan,

Dihidupku.

This simple song has changed my life.

Saat saya merasa beban terlalu berat untuk saya.

Saya tahu, ada Dia yang tak pernah meninggalkan saya.

:)

My Mother, My gem. :)

My mother, my gem, what beauty she holds
Her worth is far greater than rubies or gold.
She was created by God and sent from above
And the first gem she gives me is the gemstone of LOVE.

A love unconditional, she loves at all time
Her love never fails me for, you see, it's sublime.
The second gem she gives me is GUIDANCE each day
As she follows the Lord and shows me the way.

He gave her the knowledge through His Holy Birth
To pass on to me for survival on earth.
But the ultimate goal at the end of her miles
Is to hear her God say, "Well done, my child."

Then came the third gem God gave with no price
And with His great wisdom came the gem of SACRIFICE.
A Mother who's true to God's Holy Word
Will lay down her life and not a sigh will be heard.

She will give all she owns and never ask why
To keep safe those God loaned her from heaven on high.
Next comes the fourth gem, and she will walk through the fire
To give all that is needed to ENCOURAGE and INSPIRE.

Whatever my task or the choices I make
She'll help me get through with fewer mistakes.
She fears the Lord and for this she is praised
And her faith will be rewarded at the end of her days.

Then comes the fifth gem of COURAGE, not fear
She teaches me to listen just so I may hear.
I have Satan to battle every minute of each day
But God is the answer if I'll follow His way.

She is always there, be it day or night
To build up my courage and teach me what's right.
Many women do noble things, but she surpasses them all
When, as a Mother, she listens and responds to God's call.

Last but not least is the gemstone of PRAYER
She spends hours on her knees to keep me safe in His care.
She teaches me daily that life's trials can be long
But if I'll have faith God will help me be strong.

She can be soft and tender but tough when it's time
For she loves me unselfishly and her love is entwined
Around the heart of God and then back to me
For she gives me her love unconditionally.

She is my Mother, my Gemstone, so precious and rare
And I'm so thankful God placed me safe in her care.

-Loretta-